Jumbles ≠ Happy

Once again I am finding it hard to stick with following through with things I have started. That seems to be a recurring problem in my life these days. I feel so unmotivated to do things and I really don’t feel like writing. Add that to my mix of jumbles.

I am still in my pyjamas and robe sitting here trying to make sense of everything, again. It’s a constant uphill battle to get my mind back on track and back to real life. I guess that’s the trick isn’t it, how to get back out there without doing something social incorrect or just plain freezing and being an outcast.

Up and down, up and down. It’s a constant and recurring struggle with myself to make things happen. When I do make the effort, I am left with a high that gradually fades to nothing and then I am left feeling low again. How sad can this be?

I have no privacy in this house and it doesn’t help that the job market for my industry seems quite stagnant at the moment with very little job offerings. Sometimes the life in which I want to achieve seems so far away and so unattainable.

But best to try to see the positives right? It is the beginning of a new year, so much more can happen over the next 12 months. A fresh beginning with lots of success, luck, money and good health. That’s part of what I wished for this new year.

The other part being happiness. I just want to be happy. I want my family to be happy and I want the people around me to be happy. It’s a simple thing to want but sometimes it can be so hard to attain.